should i consider my recent lack of motivation to write a good thing, or a bad thing?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i’m not sure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
on one hand, typically i write when i feel like my head or heart might explode. it’s a pressure relief system. its an outlet which lets me express how i am feeling so it doesn’t eat me alive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
so now on the other hand, i am not feeling so motivated to write lately… does that mean there is less pressure to relieve? does that mean i am feeling better? does that mean i am starting to be happy and feel less tortured?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i’m not sure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yesterday a friend of mine came to pick up l to bring him on a hike with her son. when they got back she came in to chat for a quick minute and asked me if i was feeling happier, because i looked happier. am i happier?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i’m not sure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a lot of things which i can’t quite put my finger on it seems…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
there are some things which i am sure of though. for example, my stress level is down and my hope for the future is up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
in a couple weeks a will be coming to visit. i am really, really looking forward to that. i feel like it will kind of determine what happens and what is prioritized for the rest of this year.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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