{"id":166,"date":"2024-07-23T19:04:35","date_gmt":"2024-07-23T23:04:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dickitysix.com\/?p=166"},"modified":"2024-07-23T19:11:45","modified_gmt":"2024-07-23T23:11:45","slug":"i-just-want-to-be-your-sweet-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/?p=166","title":{"rendered":"i just want to be your sweet heart"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"SUICIDAL-IDOL - ecstacy (slowed)\" width=\"660\" height=\"371\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/lLxAbevUyIQ?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>when i removed a bunch of posts a few days ago, one of them included this song.  i didn&#8217;t want to take it down, but i wrote some stuff that really i should have kept to myself and didn&#8217;t feel good about leaving it out there.  but this song is still important to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>so&#8230; take two.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>for me, this song really embodies the feeling of limerence, obsession, infatuation, love addiction. feeling something so strongly for someone who, realistically, doesn&#8217;t even know you exist. so much so that you&#8217;re willing to humiliate yourself, subject yourself to any amount of suffering, debasement and degradation, just to get that hit of dopamine from the slightest bit of attention.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>it&#8217;s a delusion, and it&#8217;s harmful.  it hurts.  and yet you can&#8217;t help it, and you do it willingly. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>eugh.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>when i removed a bunch of posts a few days ago, one of them included this song. i didn&#8217;t want to take it down, but i wrote some stuff that really i should have kept to myself and didn&#8217;t feel good about leaving it out there. but this song is still important to me. so&#8230; &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/?p=166\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">i just want to be your sweet heart<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-166","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-sad","category-love"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/166","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=166"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/166\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":170,"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/166\/revisions\/170"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=166"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=166"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nocarrier.blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=166"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}